Seeing Me in others

In my thirties I found my spiritual guidance, my guide, my higher self. I found in my thirties that there was a source answering me, maybe not answering my questions, but answering me nonetheless. In my thirties I learned to pray; I learned to meditate. I learned that the process is not a request but an opening. Prayer is not a plea but a change. I have been working with and through these powerful tools, processes and Source ever since.

Today I read a Instagram feed that mirrors this awakening from my 30’s:

“In meditation recently I came to myself and I told myself how much I love me and how proud I am of me. It may sound silly to you but it was so powerful for me. It was exactly what I needed. At the end of the meditation I burst into tears and literally hugged myself and said, “I love you” over and over.

I am ok with myself just as I am and I know that I am beautiful and powerful. I embrace my “flaws” and love my inner demons. I am in control of my life and of my emotions. It took me 30 years to come to the conclusion that I don’t need to try so hard to please others. I need to please me…..”

I see these notes on so many Social Media feeds. I don’t think I am looking for them, they arrive on my screen. The posts read of amazement, wonder, awe and community with Source. The love, love of Source, Universe Love, pureness of love is evident in all these feeds.

This one, though, is amazingly powerful to me. It was written two months ago and I found it today. It came from my daughter’s feed.

Scientifically Empathy can be hard

Empathy (google) “the ability to understand and share the feelings of another.”

Einstein states Special Relativity is that time & space are experienced differently depending on one’s state of motion.

We can add to that General Relativity that time & space warp and curve with the presence of matter of energy.

My mother says empathy is the feeling after living in someone else’s shoes.

These are the proofs that empathy is harder to envision than we could ever know. “If it were me” syndrome never takes into effect the nuances of another state of motion or the warp and curve at the moment energy passes through.

Lifetime of Alignment

To be sure I may not be ahead of my time. I am afraid anymore that I am falling behind. All the copywrite dates on these books and the posting dates on YouTube and other channels, movies and media make me realize how far behind I am. That I am not a trailblazer. I am not the Pioneer. I am following a path along with so many others. So many that I have not met. I am assimilating as fast as I can.

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Old Soul is present

Old souls abound in our lives currently.  Old souls are abundant.  They are crowding the scenery.  Who doesn’t know an old soul?  Who out there doesn’t think of themselves as an old soul?  Old Souls are notorious for being persecuted, tormented, exiled even.  This time around there are so many they blend in as Every Man.  They used to be shamanistic, esoteric healers, sought after oracles.  We no longer have that pedestal.  Old Souls are us. And we are affecting change just by being here.

I had hoped to be an old soul of “oracle” standing, someone sought after. I had hoped for that low-grade lifetime of fame to show I am worthy of old soul designation.

If I ask myself what I wanted to show, or how I wanted to help – I think I wanted “laying on of hands”. I want to touch people and feel them be healed, to be cleared, to feel them open their “eyes”. And then of course, nobody touches anyone these days. We don’t shake hands, we lightly bump elbows for goodness sake. How is that “hello” or “goodbye” even? It just makes me laugh at the absurdity of it.

I wanted to affect change by channeling a loving guide, a voice to lighten those who would be compelled to listen.

I wanted to reach people by voice, by word, by work. I wanted to reach people by touch, by connection, by love.

I wanted to affect change in this lifetime with some semblance of surrealism apparently.

Apparently, this time around I only need to be present. This may be the hardest assignment. There are so many old souls we are not required to openly affect anyone. We just need to be present.

This assignment is much like being patient. I realize being patience is not waiting. Being patient is being engaged otherwise while that thing that is coming comes. In this way to be present is a lot like patience.

I don’t get to lay on hands, I don’t get to channel, I don’t get to openly, actively proselytize and make known this great wonder that I feel so deeply. I can do without the proselytizing, except I’m toeing a line right now…

I may be here in this lifetime merely to be present. There is no focus of person or activity.

This lifetime has gifted all of us with the power to CREATE meaning. We don’t have to ask for meaning, we create it. This statement is filled with power. So my super-power is presence? How do I work this? In the meantime, here I am.

First Lesson

This thought liberates, it erases the extraneous. All I see is just that thing and no more. All the background thoughts, intentions, histories and motives are washed away. Disintegrated.

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Moving the Furniture

I listened to a channeling by Lee Carroll’s Kyron this last weekend – a short one compared to what I usually listen to. The topic is one of my favorites – “Create the Mindset Needed to Advance Into a Higher State…” (there are no affiliate links in today’s post – all links are for reference if you choose.)

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Kryon discussed how our sentiments are changing – as if the furniture of our existence is moving…only moving itself…and when we are not looking…as if little feet grow on the chair legs and the sofa slides of it’s own accord. I found this imaging to be fascinating, disconcerting, unleveling and a little bit comical. Apparently when we named chair parts someone had already noticed the “legs”.

These spiritual movements within us are like the furniture moving while we are away. We come back and our spiritual recognition needs a moment to acclimate to the changes.

I could feel adjustments being made earlier this week as I walked in the sunshine. As if life were redirecting itself behind the scenes. While there was nothing to see, the recognition of change happening I cannot yet see was clear and intuitive. The day was brighter than it actually was. It was crisper and clearer. I don’t know what spiritual moments changed. I have never been observant enough to clearly outline, to clearly see any spiritual original to know what was changed for a masterpiece. A masterpiece is evolving. There is a masterpiece being built, my being here and the masterpiece is relevant.

Spiritual evolution is human’s beginning to awaken to previously unknown possibilities. That is the change. That is the change that is analogous to coming home to the furniture moved. An evolving human spirit. The possibilities have changed.

Who’s Voice is this?

So while meditation may have brought me to a place within that makes me want to share, I am not sure what I am sharing. It’s possible that what I am meant to share is as clear as the nose on my face, so obvious that I cannot see it for myself. That would not surprise me.

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Permission to Speak Love

This desire feels closer to truth – not as some coo-koo crazy lady, not some lost in space love-bunny. It feels closer to my truth. I still feel like I am coming out of the closet. So – here I am, in all my glory, with my fearful wishes speaking love.

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“I am”

“I am” – is a huge topic.

In meditation today I found myself merely repeating “I am” statements.  “I am” is far larger than – “I am not.”  I imagine it is because we are more than we are not.  During meditation I repeated – I am, I am, I am.  These were the words that put me in my meditative state, and they are the same words that drew me back from thoughts to keep the momentum of my meditation.

At one point I updated my simple mantra.  I mentally said, I am love.  And this addition overwhelmed me.  I am overwhelmed in my meditations.  I often am, overwhelmed that is.  I blushed during this phrase.  I felt a swelling in my closed eyes that I held away.  In the act of holding away from love to keep from crying I realize I must find a way to accept the all of this love, and to joyfully accept.

“I am love.”  As my new mantra I let this thought dissolve into my being.  It dissolves much as the ListerineR strips dissolve on my tongue.  “I am love.”  The thought dissolves and fills me.  “I am love.”  It is not an action, it is being.  I am being.  I am love. I am.  My mind and this acceptance has me lifted in waves of this love.  I relax even further; fully taking in the hugeness of love.  Of course it is huge – it is universal.

My mind feels in this love that it is accepting and it is radiating simultaneously.  Flowing in and pouring out from me simultaneously, freely and openly.  I am love.   A power statement.  This statement is more than the statement, I am loving.  I am loving requires only outflow.  “I am love” fills me even as it is a release for me.  Love is a state of being.  I feel the movement within it.  For me it is waves, as I learn to accept larger and larger oceans of love.

I am love.  I am; in the hugeness of love.

In trying to achieve the growth to contain, to allow, to hold this hugeness of love my mantra changed again – I am magnificence.  This previous hugeness of love immediately becomes intimate and wholly acceptable.  I am magnificence.  And I am larger than my body, I am largeness – but magnificence as a magnanimous without additional connotation.  I am magnificence.  And so it is that I am larger and able to flow more completely as love.  I am magnificence.  It is not a conceit – it is a statement.  I am magnificence.  It is the doorstep of the next statement, the next mantra; I am god.

This mantra during my meditation was a natural progression.  For among the love that flows and eddies and the hugeness of this magnificence, I am god.   Awareness grew as an intimate shift into a confidence of being.  I was in meditation without my name.  And this felt as it should be. I was without emotion yet with a confidence and as a part (or as a whole) with love.

My meditation timer intones that I return to my today.  And so I continue my day in this confidence and trailing this love as a comet sets off its space dust, which only I feel, only I see this.  And it is a sight, though not with my eyes.  I am.

Here I Am – Meditation

We have all felt scattered.   Don’t tell me you don’t know the feeling of scattered as you juggle keys, coffee, wallet, papers, and opening doors.  This is the non- sense of feeling scattered.  It’s a basic example and we can feel just as scattered in not being able to find key, wallet, coffee or papers.  Scattered can be a way of life.  Today let yourself come together.  Let yourself be in one place only.  Be Here.

And while you are Here, feel your own “I Am”.  For in fact, we are.  We are.  Unconditionally, we are.  So say it aloud, or silently – I am.  I am.  I am.  There are no conditions on this statement.  It is the most basic statement – I am.  And it is enough.

I have lifted the title, Here I Am, and many of the premises here from Dr. Wayne Dyer.  His Wishes Fulfilled book is remarkable.  I was inspired to meditate and to write this piece.  Be aware this book mention contains an affiliate link that costs you nothing extra for a product I truly enjoy.

So let us meditate today – right here, aligned just as we are.

 

I hope you are seated comfortably – that you are settling into your physical body.  I hope that you are warm enough, and cool enough.  I hope that you are relaxing into your body as you shut your eyes.  Meditation is easier with our eyes closed.  We feel so much more when our eyes are closed. Finish your fidgeting and fine-tuning.

Let us take some time now to allow our breathing to settle in.  Breathe deeply, feeling the breath enter and exit your body. Breath deeply again. Allow your shoulders to drop away from your ears.  Breath deeply again and relax a little more.

As you breathe in feel the light and the energy of your breath circulate through your body.  As you breathe out feel your body relax even a little more.  As your breathe in bring in the light and allow it to circulate throughout your body – including your toes, including the soles of your feet.

As you breathe is feel the light and the energy circulate through your body.  As you breathe out feel your body relax a little more.  As you breathe in bring in the light and allow it to circulate throughout your body.  Including your toes, including the soles of your feet.  And as you breathe out feel the grounding of your energy.  Feel the firmness of your self right here in the space that you are.  You are grounded yet light and easy.  You are safe.  You are loved.  Allow this love.

In your next inhale bring all this love that surrounds you into your being.  As you exhale settle this love in to your core.  Relax and feel the joy of this love.  Relax and deepen your understanding of the fullness of this love.  Nurture yourself in this profound intimacy.

Say to yourself – I am (3) –  I am here (3) –  Here I Am (3).

 

Continue to love, allow this fullness to build.  Open your body to receive more love, to hold this love, to circulate this love that is lightening you and grounding you.  Feel this love flowing through the palms of your hands and up into your fingers.

As you exhale remind yourself of the love that you circulate and say to yourself again –

I am (3) – I am here (3)  –  Here I Am (3)

While you breathe in, be here now.  Be right here, be within and be without.  Stay in your now.  Feel the fullness of right now.

As you breathe out feel the fullness of this moment fill you.

I am (3) – I am here (3)  –  Here I Am (3)

Continue this contemplation with lightness and with ease.  Come back to this thought as you need.  Clearing your mind.  Consider – Here I Am.

Relax as you meditate.  I will ring the bell when it is time to return.

Here I am.  Here I am.  Here I Am.

 

(Bell)

Let us rejoice – this is you.

Gather together your wonderful thoughts.  Tuck them into your very being – safe, comfortable, ready to be contemplated again at any time.

With our eyes still closed and your breath still comfortable and easy let us awaken our body.  Wriggle your toes and rejoice.  Wriggle your fingers and rejoice.  Enjoy your day.

I thank you for joining me today.   Please join us again soon for this recording.  Like us and come visit again as we continue to breathe.