“I am”

“I am” – is a huge topic.

In meditation today I found myself merely repeating “I am” statements.  “I am” is far larger than – “I am not.”  I imagine it is because we are more than we are not.  During meditation I repeated – I am, I am, I am.  These were the words that put me in my meditative state, and they are the same words that drew me back from thoughts to keep the momentum of my meditation.

At one point I updated my simple mantra.  I mentally said, I am love.  And this addition overwhelmed me.  I am overwhelmed in my meditations.  I often am, overwhelmed that is.  I blushed during this phrase.  I felt a swelling in my closed eyes that I held away.  In the act of holding away from love to keep from crying I realize I must find a way to accept the all of this love, and to joyfully accept.

“I am love.”  As my new mantra I let this thought dissolve into my being.  It dissolves much as the ListerineR strips dissolve on my tongue.  “I am love.”  The thought dissolves and fills me.  “I am love.”  It is not an action, it is being.  I am being.  I am love. I am.  My mind and this acceptance has me lifted in waves of this love.  I relax even further; fully taking in the hugeness of love.  Of course it is huge – it is universal.

My mind feels in this love that it is accepting and it is radiating simultaneously.  Flowing in and pouring out from me simultaneously, freely and openly.  I am love.   A power statement.  This statement is more than the statement, I am loving.  I am loving requires only outflow.  “I am love” fills me even as it is a release for me.  Love is a state of being.  I feel the movement within it.  For me it is waves, as I learn to accept larger and larger oceans of love.

I am love.  I am; in the hugeness of love.

In trying to achieve the growth to contain, to allow, to hold this hugeness of love my mantra changed again – I am magnificence.  This previous hugeness of love immediately becomes intimate and wholly acceptable.  I am magnificence.  And I am larger than my body, I am largeness – but magnificence as a magnanimous without additional connotation.  I am magnificence.  And so it is that I am larger and able to flow more completely as love.  I am magnificence.  It is not a conceit – it is a statement.  I am magnificence.  It is the doorstep of the next statement, the next mantra; I am god.

This mantra during my meditation was a natural progression.  For among the love that flows and eddies and the hugeness of this magnificence, I am god.   Awareness grew as an intimate shift into a confidence of being.  I was in meditation without my name.  And this felt as it should be. I was without emotion yet with a confidence and as a part (or as a whole) with love.

My meditation timer intones that I return to my today.  And so I continue my day in this confidence and trailing this love as a comet sets off its space dust, which only I feel, only I see this.  And it is a sight, though not with my eyes.  I am.

Here I Am – Meditation

We have all felt scattered.   Don’t tell me you don’t know the feeling of scattered as you juggle keys, coffee, wallet, papers, and opening doors.  This is the non- sense of feeling scattered.  It’s a basic example and we can feel just as scattered in not being able to find key, wallet, coffee or papers.  Scattered can be a way of life.  Today let yourself come together.  Let yourself be in one place only.  Be Here.

And while you are Here, feel your own “I Am”.  For in fact, we are.  We are.  Unconditionally, we are.  So say it aloud, or silently – I am.  I am.  I am.  There are no conditions on this statement.  It is the most basic statement – I am.  And it is enough.

I have lifted the title, Here I Am, and many of the premises here from Dr. Wayne Dyer.  His Wishes Fulfilled book is remarkable.  I was inspired to meditate and to write this piece.  Be aware this book mention contains an affiliate link that costs you nothing extra for a product I truly enjoy.

So let us meditate today – right here, aligned just as we are.

 

I hope you are seated comfortably – that you are settling into your physical body.  I hope that you are warm enough, and cool enough.  I hope that you are relaxing into your body as you shut your eyes.  Meditation is easier with our eyes closed.  We feel so much more when our eyes are closed. Finish your fidgeting and fine-tuning.

Let us take some time now to allow our breathing to settle in.  Breathe deeply, feeling the breath enter and exit your body. Breath deeply again. Allow your shoulders to drop away from your ears.  Breath deeply again and relax a little more.

As you breathe in feel the light and the energy of your breath circulate through your body.  As you breathe out feel your body relax even a little more.  As your breathe in bring in the light and allow it to circulate throughout your body – including your toes, including the soles of your feet.

As you breathe is feel the light and the energy circulate through your body.  As you breathe out feel your body relax a little more.  As you breathe in bring in the light and allow it to circulate throughout your body.  Including your toes, including the soles of your feet.  And as you breathe out feel the grounding of your energy.  Feel the firmness of your self right here in the space that you are.  You are grounded yet light and easy.  You are safe.  You are loved.  Allow this love.

In your next inhale bring all this love that surrounds you into your being.  As you exhale settle this love in to your core.  Relax and feel the joy of this love.  Relax and deepen your understanding of the fullness of this love.  Nurture yourself in this profound intimacy.

Say to yourself – I am (3) –  I am here (3) –  Here I Am (3).

 

Continue to love, allow this fullness to build.  Open your body to receive more love, to hold this love, to circulate this love that is lightening you and grounding you.  Feel this love flowing through the palms of your hands and up into your fingers.

As you exhale remind yourself of the love that you circulate and say to yourself again –

I am (3) – I am here (3)  –  Here I Am (3)

While you breathe in, be here now.  Be right here, be within and be without.  Stay in your now.  Feel the fullness of right now.

As you breathe out feel the fullness of this moment fill you.

I am (3) – I am here (3)  –  Here I Am (3)

Continue this contemplation with lightness and with ease.  Come back to this thought as you need.  Clearing your mind.  Consider – Here I Am.

Relax as you meditate.  I will ring the bell when it is time to return.

Here I am.  Here I am.  Here I Am.

 

(Bell)

Let us rejoice – this is you.

Gather together your wonderful thoughts.  Tuck them into your very being – safe, comfortable, ready to be contemplated again at any time.

With our eyes still closed and your breath still comfortable and easy let us awaken our body.  Wriggle your toes and rejoice.  Wriggle your fingers and rejoice.  Enjoy your day.

I thank you for joining me today.   Please join us again soon for this recording.  Like us and come visit again as we continue to breathe.

 

Dancing in Love

Dancing Meditation

Today’s meditation will take about 13 minutes – set a timer to allow yourself to extend your meditation out at least that long.

Thank you for joining us.  It is always good to come together.

Our minds get so busy.  Mine has been busy planning.  Planning my day, planning my responses to others, planning my feelings before I even feel them – today we are to take a break from planning.  Today we will occupy our mind with dancing.  It may even feel physical – maybe it will feel for you as if it is a physical work-out, or exercise for your brain.  It’s up to you.  Let it feel good.

Rest assured (pun intended) – we are meditating – it’s what we do here.

So for now – find that comfortable spot, that comfortable posture – a strong posture, yet relaxed.  Allow your body temperature to regulate into just the right coolness and heat. Close your eyes. Breathe fully. Relax.  Allow your feet and ankles to relax just a little bit more.  Now your hands and wrists relax just a little bit more.  You allow yourself to feel lighter.

Breathe slowly, breathe fully.  As you draw the air into your body mentally watch the air draw through your nose, down your windpipe and fill your chest and your diaphragm.  Hold this air for a moment – mentally letting it swirl through your core and then watch the air as it escapes back out of your body.  As it leaves your nostrils envision this air swirling away and dissipating- being rejoined with the air surrounding it.

Breathe in again – watching the air again coming into your body.  Watch this air as it fills your diaphragm and swirling and traveling back out of your body and swirling into the air that surrounds us.  Keep this vision with you as you are breathing deeply and completely.

Allow your body now to feel lighter, happier even.  Allow your neck to relax.   Allow your face to relax.  Now smile.  Breathe deeply in and breathe deeply out – smiling for no known reason and let it feel good.  Allow that smile to extend into your face.  Allow the happiness behind the smile to fill your body.  Your face is relaxed and happy.  Your eyes feel lighter.  Your ears feel happy.  Continue to breathe deeply and fully.  Breathing happiness.

In your mind release your body.  Imagining it breaking out on its own – into an impromptu dance.  You fill in the music.  Imagine your body expressing how this happiness feels right now.  Allow your body to dance in your mind.  Give it the freedom to express.  Let your imagination dance.

Enjoy this moment.  Dance fully.  Dance completely.  Love the dance.  Love the originality that is all yours.   Revel in your own expression.  Dance here until you can dance no more.  Allow your imagination all the time, all the space it needs.  (Take your time)

As you come to the end of your dance, as your imagination is fully expressed allow your imagination to relax.  Allow your imagination to lie down even, to relax fully.  Let your imagination feel a complete release. In this mental relaxation – allow a wash of love to flow over you.  Let love wash your resting mind.  Allow your body to feel the completeness of this love.    Allow this to become a part of your body.  Allow this love to assimilate into your pores and the cells of your being.  Allow the love of Source to soak into you and revel in this fullness, this completeness, fully whelmed in love.  Adjust your vibration to live in this love.

Adjust your vibration for acceptance of all this love.  Rejoice and smile in this love.  Check your vibration as you relax and bask in this love – Allow acceptance.  Some gifts are meant to be received.  I will ring the bell when our time is complete.

 

(Bell)

 

As you breathe deeply stay engaged in this love.  Live in it as it lives in you.  As you breathe in fully mentally zip all this love that is in you, that is you, mentally zip up an imaginary coat to keep this warmth and this love within you.  Take it with you today.

Gently open your eyes. And smile.  It is a good day.

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It is so nice to have you join us as we continue to breathe.

What I am Working Toward

Meditations sound so godawful serious.  Is there a way to add some humor?  Is there a way to just lighten the eff up and get across to my audience the joy that is available in a healthy meditation?

I’ve been listeningto  and editing these audios and I am appalled at how serious they sound.  I am aghast to hear myself telling someone what to think and that they better relax and then hey, just relax some more.  Because I said so, ya’ know.  Come on, where’s the sweetness and the gracious self I know that I am in here?  Oh yeah, do as I say.  Take my word on this, I do it too.

I love this meditation stuff.  I find my emotions and my mind in the craziest, clearest moments  ice skating , pirouetting, and leaping into the arms of Creation.  And Creation caught me, without hesitation. But how do I assist anyone into these same miraculous moments – or their own rousing,  exhilarating moments?  How do I compel anyone to live these moments in meditation and then take them along for the rest of the day?  It makes for a great day, I got to tell you.  I don’t ice skate every time I meditate.  That was just an exceptionally good time.  For godsake, I haven’t ice skated on actual ice in a lifetime.

I don’t think I am here to extoll the benefits of meditation.  I think I am here to offer a brief guided moment to help along the way.  And I want to make this fun.  I want to grow this site to the place where meditations, through these audios, are as entertaining as they are relaxing.  I want these audios to convey the openness and expansion or our own intentions (of course), and include fun, frivolous side moments, a lack of reality and an abundance of humor.  These are fun; these meditations are fun.

As I have been editing my last couple audios I have come to a somber conclusion, that they are nice.  Yikes, how boring.  I want more.  I want fun.  I want to be drawn to my own site every week for an update of humor, lightness of being , alignment in heart, pure entertainment and an opening of thought for outrageous visions.  I don’t think that is too much to ask.  This is my next project.  Back to the drawing board…pull out the stitching…turn this horse around.  And for gawdsake, get that rusty bucket outta my well.  Let’s get to work.

I have written a meditation

You may have noticed I have been dabbling with Podcasts.  I don’t know if I am getting better, but I am getting more comfortable.  The first one’s I recorded I read almost verbatim from the book I found them in.  The book is linked to the page the podcast is available through.  (Aside: Soon I need to review how podcasts show in each application to find what additional information I need to include.  I’ve given proper credit and I very much enjoyed the books I’ve listed.  I do hope others have the same opportunity.)

As I continued to find meditations that have made a difference in how I feel about life, about myself, about my circumstances, I have been reading and recording them into my podcast feed, but I have been updating the language.  I have been adjusting the tone that I heard in the author’s writing.  I have been editing how much to include and adding a point of attention for the focus that I wanted to share.  This editing has only made me an editor.

The more I edited the pieces I presented the more I realized I may be ready to write my own meditations.  Today I did.  I recorded my meditation today as well.  I’ll do the sound editing in a bit, I just want to allow myself to be thrilled about this for a moment.  Writing my own, based on what I have gathered from others, following the path of the meditation genre I can only wonder if I am writing fan-meditations.  (LOL.  Sometimes I crack me up.)

So I will get the sound edit done and post this puppy, my baby, this new child of mine in the next couple of days.  I still have recordings from readings that I have not yet posted.  I can hardly keep up with myself.

Life is full and varied – to schedule anything with any certainty is sketchy at best for me.  But I continue to breathe and create and practise and exercise and breathe.

Back on the Mat

I have been remiss in daily yoga practice.  In fact, I fell off the wagon. I’ve been hiding from my mat. In true fashion I’ve been telling myself I can go back anytime.  I feel the guilt of not keeping my word to myself to be a proper yogini.

It’s time to go back.  Going back is not the same as starting – there is a difficulty rating that was not apparent when I first started.   Now it feels hard to start.  It seems a little kick start has been necessary.

I was clamming at the ocean this weekend – we love us some Razor Clams.  It was a marvelous night for clamming, by the way.  Yes, it was crisp – okay maybe cold.  But I bundle up in my neoprene waders and my new clamming boots.  I have my pilot’s grade coat that is meant to deal with near blizzard conditions while a pilot does his walk around just before the plane is de-iced.  I don’t live in the Bahamas.  They don’t have Razor Clams there.  It was a marvelous night because it wasn’t raining.  I won’t go clamming in the cold and the dark and the rain.  Rain is my line in the sand.

As I was pulling up the clams it became evident to me that I am not taking care of myself.  My lower back was really feeling the suction of the sand in the clam-gun as I pulled up another.  I made it a point to concentrate on using my legs.  On the next hole I made it a point to square my shoulders and to pull with my legs.  On the next hole I made it a point to pull the clam up faster and not prolong the agony.  The limit on Razor clams is fifteen per person.  I got to twelve and decided if I pull another I will be unable to walk back up the beach to my car.  As it was I still needed to walk down to the water to get a bucket of seawater to soak these clams overnight so that I don’t have to clean them until the next morning.

Walking up the beach took a couple of attempts.  It is wonderful how when one is walking one can just stop and readjust, move the bucket of water from one hand to the other, switch up how one carries the clamming gun, push the clam net around to the back of one’s body so that one isn’t kicking it with every step.  I appreciate that my friend walked slow alongside me.  We knuckle bumped a good clam dig…proud to just be out there gathering our own dinner.  Fifteen clams is two meals for two people.  These are large clams.  I made her stop twice before we got to the car.

My lower back was in knots.  While I was in the hot shower after we got home I found myself practicing modified cat/cows using the built-in ledge of my shower stall.  I found myself lifting my arm high over head with a gentle bend and allowing the hot water to massage the side of my back, then changing sides to allow the hot water to massage my back on the other side.  I took meds.  I drank wine.  I went to bed.

I can feel the knot in my back.  It is one.  It is a shadow of what it was last night.  This morning I rolled out my mat and prior to meditations I loosened up my lower back.  It was a morning of light and loose cats and cows, seated twists, prone postures with the 4 pose, windshield wipers and legs wide on the mat to allow my knees to fall to one side then the other. I did a very low bridge pose.  Very low, meaning I think I lifted my butt off the mat, but I have no film footage to prove it.

I am back on the mat.  I can’t believe Razor clams kicked my butt like that.

 

Preferences

I don’t know if I’ve said it before here at Continue to Breathe – but I prefer meditation to yoga.  Maybe yoga is supposed to be a moving meditation.  But let’s get real, I don’t have to move to meditate.  I can sit and enjoy the ride.  And it is a ride.  It’s an internal ride with complete surrender, yet grounded in joy.  I prefer meditation.  Yoga is good.  I love leading my classes, but for myself I prefer mediation.

Running Energies

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Shakti Gawain rocked my world with her book Creative Visualization.  She showed me a whole new reason to think.   I must have read that book three times the first year I found it.  I was ingesting her ideas.  I was growing into the whole idea of having a say in how my life progressed.  The idea is still ingenuous.  I am still awakening to this mode of living.  I am totally loving it, and still learning it.  Shakti Gawain blew open the doors for me of how I live my life.  She was the first to tell me in all seriousness that – If I think it, it will become.  It is a very powerful way to live.

When I first read Shakti Gawain’s works I had never encountered guided meditation.  I’m not sure I had considered meditation – guided or not – at all.   It wasn’t meditation to me.  It was…ideas to ponder.   Though Shakti may be a proponent of meditation, it was the affirmations she offered that I found myself grappling with.  For me affirmations are good.  Since then I have learned meditations are better.  I already had chanting and prayers imbedded in my buddhist practise so affirmations just loaded up my mental wheelbarrow.  Meditations allow me to unload the wheelbarrow and just sit in it.

This meditation – Running Energies – I have used from Shakti’s meditation, “Opening the Energy Centers”.    As I considered this meditation I also considered adjusting the information presented to include the chakras.  It would be an easy inclusion.  The more I thought of it though, I have to say Shakti is probably right in not stating or bringing in the specific chakras here.  Not everyone is  knowledgeable about chakras.  Those that are have varying degrees of Chakra understanding, knowledge and insight.  And then the final nail in the coffin (so to speak) came from an audio I found myself listening to a rather compelling argument of why we really don’t need to worry about chakras knowledge, chakra clearing, or  chakra management.  This link is not an affiliate link, as always, feel free to click-through at no cost to you or myself for an interesting take on our chakras and our belly buttons too.

Our whole body feels good for our energy clearing.  I do know, for myself, that to clear my own energies and to get my internal awareness flowing feels invigorating and delightful.  For this it is worth posting a meditation for Running Energies.  Maybe its exercise without even opening our eyes.

Enjoy, as you continue to breathe.

Sarah

In the Now-ness of Life

I suppose my own favorite meditation lately is the exercise of getting my body and my brain together in the ‘now’ of each moment in meditation.  I don’t know how long ago I started really thinking about slowing, no stopping, the futurism of my brain and bringing that racing brain back to where my body is (seated comfortably in a chair).

The whole exercise started as I found myself reaching back to my buddhist roots during a simple meditation session to call forth my buddhist nature.  In the forty years I have been practising buddhism I have found the most fulfilling times, moments days and years, of my practise were when I was ‘filled’ with a presence greater than myself.  That filling came while I was in active buddhist prayer and chanting.  I have to admit, I could spend an hour easily in buddhist chanting prayer – it felt so good.  I would come away feeling high.  My then boyfriend (now husband) asked me one afternoon if I had been smoking something.  That’s when I realized how strong this inner being can be.  I came to rely on this prayer to calm and strengthen me.  It’s not a bad thing to fall back on.  But an hour is a long stretch of time to pull from one’s day.  My meditations now are fifteen minutes, and silent and overwhelming me still with insight, and calmness and a self that is more than self.

Yes, I do miss the time I spent in buddhist prayer.  I loved the ritual, the sounds, the smells, the postures, the sacredness of it all.  I have my alter, my Budsudan.  I love that it waits for me without screaming at me for attention, or complaining that I don’t come visit anymore or hardly ever.  Inanimate objects are amazingly patient.  Much like the dishes in my sink waiting to be rinsed and put in the dishwasher.  They’ll  wait all night without a peep out of them.

Meditation does not come with these accoutrements.  No need for candles and incense or offerings of any kind.  Meditation only requires my time.  I am finding these simple meditations to be as powerful as the peace and authenticity I found with the formal buddhist format.  Meditation is almost an anywhere thing.  I only need a comfortable chair and fifteen minutes undisturbed. Twenty years ago in the throes of full on buddhist fulfillment I would have called my bluff.  I would have told me that nothing comes easy.  Do your time.  Get on your meditation perch (assume the position?) and power through till enlighenment arrives.

I guess enlightenment arrived.  for these days I am satisfied.  I am happy.  The timing in my life is exquisite and I am fortunate every single day.  I wish the same for every one.  Every single person.  May they find this when they are ready – but of course they will.  As  the dishes wait for attention and we continue to breathe.